Do you ever have days where you have to remind yourself that you are cute? No really. I mean I go to the gym three-four-five times a week (let’s just pretend shall we), I eat like a dang rabbit, guzzling water like I’m walking through a desert on top of everything else trying to look like a (Plus Sized) Supermodel! I am fully aware that I will NEVER look like Jennifer Lopez or Halle Berry, but hey…they don’t seem to be able to keep a man either so there! Sometimes I go through my Facebook pics and truly take time to notice that I am really cute.
When I saw this prompt, I forget where (I’m sorry), my first and immediate thought was PROM! Oh my goodness! Me and my mom searched high and low for a dress before finally going to David’s Bridal. I had seen this turquoise halter dress with a mermaid skirt and a black design of what looked like Japanese flowers, not a lotus but flowers drawn in the Japanese art form, that wrapped from the front to the back. Simple and elegant and just a touch of the 1940s.
I knew that my mom wouldn’t let me wear it because she didn’t want me in a halter, but I convinced her to let me try it on just because it was pretty and isn’t that what you are supposed to do when you ar out shopping for prom dresses with your mom? It was the last of 5 dresses in that store that I was interested in and none of the other’s were speaking to me. I put on the turquoise dress and stepped out of the fitting room. I saw the mirror in front of me like it had been the past 4 times and didn’t recognize myself. I told the girl in the mirror, which I suddenly thought was a different girl that she looked really nice in her dress and looked around for my reflection.
My mother was awe struck. We had found a dress that looked good on morbidly obese me and OH did I ROCK that dress! I wanted to show you a pic but I don’t have any saved on my computer so I picked another moment that I was reminded of my beauty.
This photo was taken April 17, 2011. at the time I weighed probably about 265lbs. I got the dress from Forever 21 (in the plus sized department that they were hiding in the basement), you can’t see the shoes but I got them at Payless. I got this outfit for my birthday (November) but it is the BADDEST club dress I own. This is my going away party with my sorority sisters. I would have been heading off to Florida two weeks later.
I was really feeling myself this night because I was out with my sisters, I had drink in hand, and I was about to embark on a new journey. The reason that I gave everyone for leaving was to go to grad school but that was an excuse. I just wanted to be out on my own and out of Chicago and out of my mother’s (really it was my aunt’s) house!
The reason I LOVE this photo is obvious. THOSE GAMS! I think my legs are my favorite body part. I want nothing more than to be 80 and still have dancer legs like Chita Rivera, granted my legs are a bit thicker than Madam Chita they are firm and smooth. My mom says that when I was born I had little bitty legs and she cried because she wanted me to have “big pretty legs”; so she cried and greased and prayed and there they are!