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Self Assurance and Self Acceptance

 

Do you love yourself, as is? Do you wish you were more comfortable in your own skin?

I will admit, that like most women (including supermodels) that there are some things that I would like to change.  You know the length and texture of my hair or my waistline, the flap and shake of my arms and thighs.  The funny thing is that most of those things I can fix…or at least attempt to.  I started wearing wigs a few months ago so I can change the length and style of my hair by the hour if I want.  Eventually I will lose all the weight and that will solve the other issues.  Most people would say that because I do these things that I am not comfortable in my own skin but I think that I am.

I know that I don’t look like a supermodel and I’m okay with it.  I am secure in my insecurities. Granted I’m not bold enough to be 265 lbs and wear a wear a crop top in public exposing ALL my belly flesh, but I applaud those that do.

I would say that I love myself as is.  Not because of the additions and subtractions that I use on the semi daily.  Insecure or not I have always had a different vision of my self in my mind then I did in the mirror.  I have also worked very hard at being comfortable in my own skin, but it was never for my looks.  I sometimes feel that I have a personality flaw that I can’t pinpoint.  That there is something in my manner and behaviours that rub people the wrong way or causes them to rub me the wrong way.  I’ll get upset for about 5 hours and then decide that I don’t care.

I’m sure that I would be more comfortable in my skin if I had skin that was more social acceptable. Not saying that I was paler or anything, just if I was the type of girl that more than a mother could love.  But on the other hand, I would hate it it I was a cookie cutter kind of girl.

So in conclusion to all of my ramblings.  Yes.  I do love myself, and I think that I am pretty comfortable in my skin.

What do you think?  How do you feel about this prompt?

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